Crying

Mom goes through these phases where she becomes masochist and dredges up anything painful. Such as old memories, reading about boyfriends ex's on their friends websights, listening to old music that people she was one close with wrote, looking at pictures and generally thinking about anything that may make her sad. She does not do this often but when she does it is usually sparked by something. Last night she was hired to clean her old boss's office and usually that would be ok, but this time she learned that it's time to move on an not count on any favors from her ever again. This way if something good does come then it will be unexpected and out of the blue. (there is a whole lot more to that comment but it's not only my story to tell).
Next, she got bad news about this great apartment she thought she was going to get. Someone else got it. That sparked a whole flood of tears, and a feeling that she needed to go home and cry about everything in her life that was making her sad, and once made her sad. When you are searching for things to keep the tears flowing it is amazing how things pile out of the woodwork.
I feel like good buckets of tears are good for you. They get everything out and when you wake up in the morning, yes your eyes are puffy but your head is a lot clearer and the day is more manageable.
I just get sad when mom cries because she does not let me lick her tears, but instead pushes me away until she has controlled her sobbs.